Feeling like the world is pulling me in several directions at once.
I feel like crap. My sinuses are throbbing. My eyes hurt. I am tired. My left ankle is sore. My right shoulder still hasn’t completely recovered from whatever the hell I did to it a week or two ago. Physically I am spent, and yet…
I feel good!
I got a call for a possible temp to hire gig a few hours ago. Again someone found my resume on-line. I will not jump for joy and say I FOUND A JOB! because I haven’t, but this is the best opportunity I’ve had in a while. $2 more per hour then my last temp gig, if it happens. Now I looked up the company on-line and looked for scams and complaints in relation to them, but found nothing but one person saying they had been shorted a $100 bonus. And whom would I be temping with, should this short term gig come through?
That’s right, a company I worked for from 1990 to 1994. But if they pay, and they want me, I won’t turn my nose up at it.
And yet I feel like crap. There is more sobering stuff going on with me, positive but sobering. I called a place today to get the ball rolling on bankruptcy. I called the wrong place…or the right place, but at the wrong time. They gave me a phone number for the New York Bar Association, who will refer me to a member of the bar in good standing after which I call the company I called today and get the counseling I legally need before I can attempt to declare bankruptcy.
I spoke of my feelings about the extra hoops I must jump through in the Rhino Nuggets section of this blog.
I paid the rent today… or more appropriately, the landlord picked up the rent check that I wrote yesterday, today. I went shopping. Spent $900 today between the two. Things have to move fast for me to feel in any way secure about my future, because the money is disappearing quickly. But I must have patience.
No money coming in. Bills sapping resources. Tired, feeling ill. Possible job coming through though, help with keeping the predators creditors at bay as well. Good and bad today, just like every other day, the good and bad just had greater contrast than usual today.
Yesterday’s speech by President Obama, in it’s entirety, from Youtube’s White house page.
You might dislike the President’s call here, especially in the financial pickle we find ourselves in, and this is an ugly war regardless (is there any such thing as a pretty war?, and if so how?) but tell me, what serious choice did he have? Yes we end up propping up a corrupt Karzai government here, but where is the good alternative? Can you seriously think of one? I have heard a ton of people say this is the wrong thing to do, but none, NONE, have offered a reasonable alternative.
I am not sure there is a reasonable alternative. There is an American problem in Afghanistan, there needs to be an American solution. But just because there will be an American solution, doesn’t mean it will be an American solution that all Americans can get behind. This situation was a crap sammich well before the current Administration got it’s hands on it, did you think he was Harry zarking Potter, and he was just going to make the bad crap go away with a wave of his f****** wand?
That’s it for me. Later!
Today’s nuggets, by Marcus Aurelius, Via wikiquote: All that is harmony for you, my Universe, is in harmony with me as well. Nothing that comes at the right time for you is too early or too late for me. Everything is fruit to me that your seasons bring, Nature. All things come of you, have their being in you, and return to you.
Take heed not to be transformed into a Caesar, not to be dipped in the purple dye, for it does happen. Keep yourself therefore, simple, good, pure, grave, unaffected, the friend of justice, religious, kind, affectionate, strong for your proper work. Wrestle to be the man philosophy wished to make you.
Nothing happens to anybody which he is not fitted by nature to bear.